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3.25.2010

there. again.

almost. there. home. awake.asleep. full. done. ready to roll. forgot. forgot again. right. late. 7.6.8. taller. sad. happy. different. forty. better. secure. .............. complete.in Him.

Not just a loose tooth.

She needed to see the nurse at school today. A little salt in a cup of water and her loose and hurting tooth was all better, for now.
We went the long way back to the playground, my little second grade friend and I. She talked; I listened. She needs new tennis shoes. Do I see the hole in the top of that one? She needs to go to the dentist. Do I forget to call the dentist when my son's tooth hurts?
Do I know where Florida is? She really wanted a whole chocolate muffin the other day but she had to share with her brother and sister. Her brother just got sort of new shoes. Do I have to share? Do we have a lot of people in our house? Her dad has an interview today. She misses Florida. Do I know that she just moved here 2 weeks ago? Her mom has so much on her mind that she forgets to call the dentist. Her mom has nothing to do. Do I cry alot? She loves her Nana and Papa. She shares a room with her family but there are 2 bathrooms. Her Nana cooks and said that she will always have food for Buddy, too. Do I know Buddy? Buddy is an old dog but he is young enough to move with her to Georgia. Do I have food to cook for a dog? Does my daddy have to go to interviews too? Does my daddy cry alot? Her daddy does and it makes her very sad. She's happy when she gets to play with Buddy. She'll be happy when she gets new shoes, even if they are sort of new shoes like her brothers. She likes her new school. She likes me. I didn't know that I was going to come help her teacher and get to take her to the nurse, did I?
No, my sweet friend, I didn't, but I am so happy to spend time with you today. I can't wait to see your new shoes and I'm so glad that you have Buddy with you. Your Nana and Papa sound wonderful! It's sad to move, isn't it? It's sad for your dad and mom and brother and sister, too. Please don't cry. Daddy will find a job and mommy will find things to do. I know it's hard to share a room but I am proud of you for sharing. Do you know how beautiful you are? Your heart is just as beautiful. I can see it all the way out here.
It was a short walk although we walked the long way back. It could have never been long enough for either one of us.
Her tooth hurt, but her heart hurt more.

Today, I am thankful for my new friend who has a beautiful heart. She reminded me of important things.
It was a really good God moment.
She needed to see the nurse at school today. A little salt in a cup of water and her loose and hurting tooth was all better, for now.
We went the long way back to the playground, my little second grade friend and I. She talked; I listened. She needs new tennis shoes. Do I see the hole in the top of that one? She needs to go to the dentist. Do I forget to call the dentist when my son's tooth hurts?
Do I know where Florida is? She really wanted a whole chocolate muffin the other day but she had to share with her brother and sister. Her brother just got sort of new shoes. Do I have to share? Do we have a lot of people in our house? Her dad has an interview today. She misses Florida. Do I know that she just moved here 2 weeks ago? Her mom has so much on her mind that she forgets to call the dentist. Her mom has nothing to do. Do I cry alot? She loves her Nana and Papa. She shares a room with her family but there are 2 bathrooms. Her Nana cooks and said that she will always have food for Buddy, too. Do I know Buddy? Buddy is an old dog but he is young enough to move with her to Georgia. Do I have food to cook for a dog? Does my daddy have to go to interviews too? Does my daddy cry alot? Her daddy does and it makes her very sad. She's happy when she gets to play with Buddy. She'll be happy when she gets new shoes, even if they are sort of new shoes like her brothers. She likes her new school. She likes me. I didn't know that I was going to come help her teacher and get to take her to the nurse, did I?
No, my sweet friend, I didn't, but I am so happy to spend time with you today. I can't wait to see your new shoes and I'm so glad that you have Buddy with you. Your Nana and Papa sound wonderful! It's sad to move, isn't it? It's sad for your dad and mom and brother and sister, too. Please don't cry. Daddy will find a job and mommy will find things to do. I know it's hard to share a room but I am proud of you for sharing. Do you know how beautiful you are? Your heart is just as beautiful. I can see it all the way out here.
It was a short walk although we walked the long way back. It could have never been long enough for either one of us.
Her tooth hurt, but her heart hurt more.

Today, I am thankful for my new friend who has a beautiful heart. She reminded me of important things.
It was a really good God moment.

You Messed Me Up!

Last night, well over two hours at Passion City Church were absolutely God inspired. By far the most uncomfortable, mess me up kind of message I have heard in a long time. Thank you Louie Giglio for loving God enough to be okay with speaking hardcore Word – even if it did make my heart want to turn inside out and even if there was a chance no one would stay for the informational meeting after!  I spent much of the night caught somewhere between not wanting to so much as breathe in fear of missing a syllable and wanting to stretch out on the floor on my stomach in honor of the One who has the biggest picture and very best plan. Truly, a pin could have dropped and it would have been heard in a room with hundreds. If I remember correctly, even the babies were quiet…or maybe, they weren’t. I was. I still am.
However, this morning I found myself staring at these beautifully radiant, purple flowers that bloomed without warning. I would have never expected this and I'm certain that no one else would have either. As I continued to think about this unexpected surprise, I began to see the faces of my two teenage girls. So often I have attempted to bring change to the winter landscape in one of their lives that has been brought on by age, school or friends. With every ounce of time, talent and resource I have, I plant something new then watch with expectation for something, anything. Time passes. Hope waxes and wanes. And then, it's there. Without warning, winter flowers have bloomed at spring and they are beautiful. Radiant. Welcome.